Music,

What is it really?

Going to the roots, sound waves of different frequencies that travel in time, different times to create tempo and rhythm. Scales constructed from frequencies that have consistent intervals.

Consistency.

To the root of physics to create an artistic medium. Never really looked at it that way huh?

To the root of physics to create an artistic medium to which people feel, feel not physically, not mentally but spiritually. Some what a combination that can create something else inside of a person, re-creating an identity for 4 minutes, devouring a spiritual soul and pleasuring it with emotion and feeling. Physics, pleasures your soul.

Thats hot.

I guess people think of music, but they don't really think about it. I mean think where it comes from, how its even present.

Definition I found on Google: an artistic form of auditory communication incorporating instrumental or vocal tones in a structured and continuous manner

Structure, continuous, consistency. There that word is again, music seems to fall into place with consistency. When I make music and even if it is for a second, I see myself outside the glass door looking in at myself, and I think, what is it that I am actually doing? Am I hitting different frequencies of sound determined by the thickness of strings in a sequential way to make it sound pleasurable to the soul?

Or am I just using what I learnt to make progressions that sound appealing?

I don't even know, so if you find out please call me.

I don't know how to explain where I fit when it comes to music, or where it fits with me, all I do know is I need it, and I probably always will. I may not even know a lot about music, but I know enough.

Some how this "art of physics" has grasped my soul, in a way I never thought I would be devoured.

It just falls into place, its like screwing a nail into the perfect hole, it fits so smugly and theres no room for anything else.

"Recreates an identity for 4 minutes."

Songs.

In my opinion they are manifestations of music ran over with emotion.

A song gives so much and asks for so little.

Emotion.

You become it, it becomes you.

The music is consuming.

I guess, it's going to take a while to fully grasp the thing.

And I hope I will truly grasp it.

Not wander aimlessly and hit me in the face at the end of the line.

Just getting this down, I think is an achievement.

I need to keep what I know close to me,

"Trap doors to endless wisdom."

Shazz,

I'm back, it's been a while oh diary.

I've had time to think, about a lot recently. Things have been different, I guess things are finally starting to feel somewhat complete, as odd as that may seem. A topic that is pretty sensitive to many.

Life.

I've had a lot of time to analyse friends situations and people's conception of the world. Often hearing the phrase.
"Arghhhh, life is so shit, I wanna kill myself."

This really pisses the fuck me off my chair.

Life is complex thing, even though each beings may seem so insignificant.

Life is there to live.

to experience.

to win.

to lose.

to see.

to feel.

to hear.

to hate.

to Love.

Life is there to be LIVED.
Pessimism is the key to let life pass you buy. No-one waits for the miser on the side of the road criticizing the world. Pessimism holds you down. Limit's your existence.

Life does have its downs, but they aren't there for self-pity, they are there to experience, grow. I may just be sounding like a steroid pumped motivational speaker.

But it's the truth.

I made the conscious decision, to not let things pass me by. It completely changed the way I think. Everyday is not "just another day" or just "bludge subject day," but rather an opportunity to live, an opportunity to experience.

Life is a beautiful thing. It's like a bird who's wings have been clipped by pessimism.

You could be the bird that soared to heights you never thought were possible, or you can sit back and criticize the way it falls and the way it falters, but in the end, your still the one on the ground.

Next time you say it, you know what I'm talking about.
"Life's shit."

Really think, is it really?

What can you appreciate?

Remember that, your probably just into your adolescence, you have your whole fucking life infront of you.

Have dreams.

Have hopes.

Have belief.

Don't abuse your time, but love every second of it.

"Come out darkness, bring everyone you know. I'm not running and I'm not scared."

Oh and before I leave, masssssive shout out to a little girl named Mishti, who's birthday was today, well no so little, cus she's older than me now.

Hope you had a awesome day, remember it for yonkers.

- Shazz.