I'm back, it's been a while oh diary.

I've had time to think, about a lot recently. Things have been different, I guess things are finally starting to feel somewhat complete, as odd as that may seem. A topic that is pretty sensitive to many.

Life.

I've had a lot of time to analyse friends situations and people's conception of the world. Often hearing the phrase.
"Arghhhh, life is so shit, I wanna kill myself."

This really pisses the fuck me off my chair.

Life is complex thing, even though each beings may seem so insignificant.

Life is there to live.

to experience.

to win.

to lose.

to see.

to feel.

to hear.

to hate.

to Love.

Life is there to be LIVED.
Pessimism is the key to let life pass you buy. No-one waits for the miser on the side of the road criticizing the world. Pessimism holds you down. Limit's your existence.

Life does have its downs, but they aren't there for self-pity, they are there to experience, grow. I may just be sounding like a steroid pumped motivational speaker.

But it's the truth.

I made the conscious decision, to not let things pass me by. It completely changed the way I think. Everyday is not "just another day" or just "bludge subject day," but rather an opportunity to live, an opportunity to experience.

Life is a beautiful thing. It's like a bird who's wings have been clipped by pessimism.

You could be the bird that soared to heights you never thought were possible, or you can sit back and criticize the way it falls and the way it falters, but in the end, your still the one on the ground.

Next time you say it, you know what I'm talking about.
"Life's shit."

Really think, is it really?

What can you appreciate?

Remember that, your probably just into your adolescence, you have your whole fucking life infront of you.

Have dreams.

Have hopes.

Have belief.

Don't abuse your time, but love every second of it.

"Come out darkness, bring everyone you know. I'm not running and I'm not scared."

Oh and before I leave, masssssive shout out to a little girl named Mishti, who's birthday was today, well no so little, cus she's older than me now.

Hope you had a awesome day, remember it for yonkers.

- Shazz.